Here we go again.

There are many reasons why people decide to try and lose weight and I have my own.


1.  I am sick of being fat, I don't want to be that fat Mum at the school gates.  I finally realised a couple of weeks ago that I was the fattest Mum at the school and believe me that did not feel good.  Now I need to put things into a bit of perspective, this is not your average school. Most of the mums here look like that have just stepped off the pages of Good Health, Tatler, or Running magazine.  Many of them have their own gyms, swimming pools and trainers (and I don't mean the shoes) waiting for them at home for their return from the school run, others have just realised a lot sooner than I have that its no fun being fat.


2.  The last time I saw my best friend she asked had I considered a gastric band.  Again let me put this into perspective, Lisa is and probably will always be the only person allowed to talk to me like this, but then she has been my best friend since I was 11.  I know she didn't mean anything bad by it but it did make me think.


3.  I am an emotional eater, there I finally said it, eating is my crutch, my support network and always there for me, but it is no friend, and I realised I had to make friends with the enemy and have a better relationship with it full stop.  I complained to another good friend a while ago that I had put weight on since the death of my step father, and she said to me "thin people suffer bereavement and grief too"  and she was right, most of us go through tough times in our lives but it is up to us to decide how we deal with them.  Some people smoke, some people take drugs, some people drink, some people eat and some people just get on with it!


So here I am again, committed to doing my blog as often as I can.  I have now been making friends with food for 2 weeks and have lost 8 pounds.  I have also given up all alcohol for 25 days and I am over half way there, thank god.


So here's to the future whatever it may bring!